Bitter sweet memories...
A rather late entry cos i just got back from Mustafa. A last minute shopping to get my basic necessities before my trip this Friday. It was my first time there alone. If not because of the urgency to get things done, i'd never be there alone especially at night.
While i was driving home alone, i listened to Class 95. I've always enjoyed listening to that particular station coz of its mature contents. And so there was a listener who called in. He was this Malay guy who called to dedicate a song to his wife. He sounded very much in love with his wife. In November, they will be celebrating their 10th year wedding anniversary. Dats pretty long! Being the sweet husband that he is, he is planning on a celebration to commemorate the event. Such a darling rite?He then went on surprising the deejay with a revelation that his wife is actually his ex's best friend.Get the picture?? I reckon dats wat u call jodoh. Yes, they were in a sticky situation before but they overcame it together.Sadly, the wife and her best fren are no longer friends. Sad ya, but dats the way life is!
Sometimes, love comes to you in the most unpleasant way. You'l never know when and how you will find your perfect half.For some, its pretty smooth sailing or plainly obvious but for some, its really unexpected.
This reminds me of an experience i had while i was a teenager. Let me single out this particular guy; there was this guy who was very much interested in me when i was 15. Well i came from an all girls school therefore i was kindof "terrified" of guys.I always shy away from their attention. And so, i decided to play hard to get.
I used to have a best friend whom i adored. She knew everything about me and even my secrets. Well, you guessed it right! I even told her all about this guy. She was very intent in getting us together. As months went by, i began to fall for this guy. And so, i thought of reciprocating those affection.
One afternoon, one the way home from school, while i was alighting from the bus,i saw a scene which is still etched in my mind up till now. I saw my dear best friend holding hands with the guy i was falling for. They were chatting away happily at the bus stop. My heart broke into a million pieces. At an instant, i knew it was beyond repair. I trusted her with all my heart and soul. And i loved her sooo much. But if that is what friendship is all about, betrayal is the word. She meant a whole lot to me therefore i would sacrifice for her sake. I got down the bus, 3 pairs of eyes met, i swallowed my pride and gave them a smile and walked away feeling so darn dissapointed. Not only with her but with myself too. There's no one to blame but me. My fault for being a late bloomer. I can't blame her for coming forth and offering him her love, the love which i was holding back.
My bestie and i never talked again till we both left school. Many years passed us by. More than 10 years in fact. As i ripen with age, I began to understand that whatever that had happened, happens for a reason.He was never meant for me.It was fate that made them fell in love. We can't blame nature. She deserved the right to fall in love and be happy. Im sure she felt the same sticky situation like the mentioned listener above. And im certain that she didn't see it coming too. Cos i know she never meant to hurt me and im so sure of that.
I really miss her, honestly. For those years that we didn't talk, we've missed out on many, many things. I always think of her and at times i do talk about her to my hubby. I hope to see her again, perhaps bumping into her at the mall or something. So we can catch up on things we've missed out on all these years. I wonder what she does now and is she married? Im pretty sure she has bloomed into a very beautiful lady, as beautiful as she used to be before.
This has taught me alot of values in life. Things come when you least expected it. And through circumstances too, i met my hubby. Im glad i found a soulmate in him cos i don't think i could find anyone better as he is the best guy i've found. I've never wished for anyone else after i met him.
While i was driving home alone, i listened to Class 95. I've always enjoyed listening to that particular station coz of its mature contents. And so there was a listener who called in. He was this Malay guy who called to dedicate a song to his wife. He sounded very much in love with his wife. In November, they will be celebrating their 10th year wedding anniversary. Dats pretty long! Being the sweet husband that he is, he is planning on a celebration to commemorate the event. Such a darling rite?He then went on surprising the deejay with a revelation that his wife is actually his ex's best friend.Get the picture?? I reckon dats wat u call jodoh. Yes, they were in a sticky situation before but they overcame it together.Sadly, the wife and her best fren are no longer friends. Sad ya, but dats the way life is!
Sometimes, love comes to you in the most unpleasant way. You'l never know when and how you will find your perfect half.For some, its pretty smooth sailing or plainly obvious but for some, its really unexpected.
This reminds me of an experience i had while i was a teenager. Let me single out this particular guy; there was this guy who was very much interested in me when i was 15. Well i came from an all girls school therefore i was kindof "terrified" of guys.I always shy away from their attention. And so, i decided to play hard to get.
I used to have a best friend whom i adored. She knew everything about me and even my secrets. Well, you guessed it right! I even told her all about this guy. She was very intent in getting us together. As months went by, i began to fall for this guy. And so, i thought of reciprocating those affection.
One afternoon, one the way home from school, while i was alighting from the bus,i saw a scene which is still etched in my mind up till now. I saw my dear best friend holding hands with the guy i was falling for. They were chatting away happily at the bus stop. My heart broke into a million pieces. At an instant, i knew it was beyond repair. I trusted her with all my heart and soul. And i loved her sooo much. But if that is what friendship is all about, betrayal is the word. She meant a whole lot to me therefore i would sacrifice for her sake. I got down the bus, 3 pairs of eyes met, i swallowed my pride and gave them a smile and walked away feeling so darn dissapointed. Not only with her but with myself too. There's no one to blame but me. My fault for being a late bloomer. I can't blame her for coming forth and offering him her love, the love which i was holding back.
My bestie and i never talked again till we both left school. Many years passed us by. More than 10 years in fact. As i ripen with age, I began to understand that whatever that had happened, happens for a reason.He was never meant for me.It was fate that made them fell in love. We can't blame nature. She deserved the right to fall in love and be happy. Im sure she felt the same sticky situation like the mentioned listener above. And im certain that she didn't see it coming too. Cos i know she never meant to hurt me and im so sure of that.
I really miss her, honestly. For those years that we didn't talk, we've missed out on many, many things. I always think of her and at times i do talk about her to my hubby. I hope to see her again, perhaps bumping into her at the mall or something. So we can catch up on things we've missed out on all these years. I wonder what she does now and is she married? Im pretty sure she has bloomed into a very beautiful lady, as beautiful as she used to be before.
This has taught me alot of values in life. Things come when you least expected it. And through circumstances too, i met my hubby. Im glad i found a soulmate in him cos i don't think i could find anyone better as he is the best guy i've found. I've never wished for anyone else after i met him.
Thank you Allah.
