I Never Thought I'll Catch This Love Bug Again...: A Birthday Wish

Exactly a year ago, on this very day, was a very depressing day for both the husband & i.

It was on this day i was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy.

For those who might not know what an ectopic pregnancy is - Ectopic pregnancy, also known as a tubal pregnancy, occurs when the pregnancy implants outside of the womb. It can occur in several places, eg. the ovary, the abdomen, the cervix, at the join between the tube and the womb (cornua), but the most common place is within the fallopian tube. Pregnancy can even occur in both the womb and the tube at the same time. The most serious complication of an ectopic pregnancy is intra-abdominal hemorrhage (severe bleeding).

Ectopic pregnancies cannot continue to term (birth), so the developing cells must be removed to save the mother's life. Emergency medical help is needed if the area of the ectopic pregnancy ruptured. (Shock is an emergency condition.) Ectopic pregnancies are life-threatening. Treatment for shock may include keeping the woman warm, raising her legs, and giving oxygen. Fluids by IV and a blood transfusion may be needed.

Surgery (laparotomy) is done to stop blood loss (in the event of a rupture). This surgery is also done to confirm the diagnosis of ectopic pregnancy, remove the abnormal pregnancy, and repair any tissue damage. In some cases, removal of the fallopian tube may be necessary.

And, sadly the baby had to go.

That meant the pregnancy had to be terminated.

That also meant that i had to go through a surgery called laparoscopy.

I was lucky i was diagnosed earlier else it might have caused me my fallopian tubes or even my life if it had ruptured internally.

However, i was already bleeding slightly.

But i was fortunate enough that my fallopian tubes were in good shape and need not be removed.

Some pictures to prove the ectopic pregnancy.

a blue dye was injected to check if there's any blockage in the fallopian tubes

Notice the womb?

the bleeding in the womb

memories i have to live with

I remember it was the saddest birthday gift i could present the husband.

On his birthday, he was at the hospital seeing me through the surgery and waiting patiently throughout the ordeal until i was wheeled out of the operation theatre.

So, i vowed that i will try all my might to never ever let him go through any more of such distressing moment.

Coz for sure, it it something he will remember for the rest of his life.

I remember him crying not because he lost the baby but afraid of losing me, after seeing the pain i went through.

A baby, we can always try again, he said.

Last year's raya wasn't a good one at that.

I was nursing myself back to health and those who came to visit wasn't only for the sake of raya but because the condition i was in.

They saw how much pain i was in.

Alhamdulillah, this year has been a good year for both the husband & i.

But as i looked at my abdomen, the scars are till visible and i cringe at the memories of being wheeled into the operating theatre where i cried my lungs out.

The surgeon had to give me some time and tissues while i lie down crying all i could to make myself feel better before they proceeded.

When i woke up a few hours after the surgery, i saw him by my bedside rubbing my forehead.

I had spoilt his birthday.

I pray that i never will have to go through such pain again.

Amin.

Ok enuff, of reminiscing the sadness.

It's a happy day today.

So today is someone's special day.

He is someone closest to my heart.